Part Five
Collisions
"Alex, don't do this." Nathan pleaded as he
followed Alex after she had picked up her suitcase from the front hallway of
her house and started towards the door.
Alex did not want to listen because she did not want
to hear another person telling her why she should remain in
"Look, I'm not changing my mind so give it
up." Alex turned to him, wishing he could understand how hard this was for
her. She did not want to leave because she loved
"Miss Alex he loves you." Nathan said
quietly. "You have to know that."
It was his last ditch effort to try and keep her from
doing something rash because he did not want her go any more than Vin did,
Nathan was sure. Alexandra Styles was apart of the fellowship, the way Mary and
Inez had been since the seven men had first bonded together in their tight knit
circle. To Nathan, she was more than just a friend, she was family. He
understood perfectly, the pain she was feeling but much of this had to do with
pride more than anything else.
He had hoped it would be easier to reason with Alex
but now understood how wrong he had been.
"I do know Nathan," Alex softened, feeling
the emotion well up inside her whenever she looked into her heart and was faced
with everything Vin Tanner was to her. She loved him unconditionally and
suspected she always would but he had destroyed all faith she had in him when he
was so ready to believe that
Nathan could not deny her words but he still refused
to let her walk away from her life like this. "Alex don't go like
this." He asked, feeling helpless because he knew that she did not really
want to leave but the one person who could make her stay was doing nothing to
stop her.
Alex continued down the stairs, emerging into the
afternoon sun. The stage was due to depart for Sweet Water in less than twenty
minutes and she had everything she would need for her stay in that town while
she decided what she would do next. Alex had not thought beyond leaving
"Nathan, I don't have time to discuss this with
you." Alex replied, wishing he would just drop the subject since there was
nothing to talk about. Didn't he know how hard this was for her? It was tearing
her heart out walking away from her home and her friends but it had to be done!
There was no room for negotiation. She could not bear staying here and watching
Vin with
"I know," Nathan retorted, angry at the deadline
that was approaching, realizing how close he was to defeat each time she took
one step closer to the stage depot. "But it ain't just Vin who needs you,
it's this whole town. You can't leave Miss Mary in the state she is in. She's
all torn up inside about Billy and we're no closer to finding him then we was
two days ago!"
"That's not fair Nathan," she glared at him.
"You can't lay this all on me!" She was trying not to cry as she
descended the steps and started towards the board walk that would take her
deeper into town, but his words were reaching into her and reminding her why
she loved For Corners so much. "I can't stay here! Don't you understand?
It's ripping me apart being this close to him and knowing that its over."
"You stayed when it was Ezra," Nathan said
foolishly and regretted the words as soon as they left his mouth.
"Ezra is not VIN!" Alex shouted, feeling the
last vestiges of control break in a thousand pieces as the tears started coming
down her cheeks. "Nathan please understand, I cannot stay here the way
things are. Now Inez and Julia are here for Mary and I'm sure Chris will find
Billy like he always does and things will go on just fine without me. You were
healing people in
Nathan knew nothing else to say to her and stopped
following her after that point, allowing her to widen the distance between as
she continued on her way. He watched her disappearing up the boardwalk knowing
that it was up to him to do something about this situation before the damage
done was permanent. He knew that both Alex and Vin still loved each other very
much even though they were too stubborn to work out their differences. Although
the tracker had said nothing about his quarrel with Alex, every member of the
seven knew that it preyed heavily on his mind, just as they knew how badly
Chris was feeling over his own troubles with Mary Travis.
The healer was not about to let two people who made
such complete sense together for no other reason that the fact that they just
did, walk away because someone had manipulated them both. Out of sheer
desperation than anything else, he started making his way to the saloon, hoping
against hope that if he could not reach Alex, he might have better luck with
Vin.
Ezra sat in the saloon watching Vin and knew he had to
do something.
Since Billy's abduction, the group had been taking
turns searching the country side for any trace of the boy. So far their efforts
had been less then exemplary and only worsened the situation between Mary and
Chris who were no longer on speaking terms. While the seven knew Mary's anger
would last as long as Billy was gone, the same could not be said for Vin and
Alex. Ezra had known from the moment Charlotte Richmond had arrived in town
that eventually she would cause enough difficulty to drive Alex and Vin apart.
However, even Ezra had underestimated how well she could manipulate Vin into
doing most of the work for her.
With Chris, Buck, Josiah and J.D. out searching today,
Ezra, Nathan and Vin were left in town to keep an eye on Mary as well as
getting some rest since they had been riding most of the night. However, no one
could sleep knowing the boy was still out there. Vin on the other hand, had
more than just Billy Travis' life to concern himself with, especially with Alex
due to leave
At the moment, Vin was sitting in a corner of the
room, having made it clear to everyone that he did not want company. The
tracker spent the better part of the morning, simply staring at the velvet box
he had carried with him since Ezra had helped him select the band of gold
within. It sat on the table next to a tall bottle of whisky that Vin had been
working steadily through most of the day, unopened and unpresented
to the woman to whom it was meant for.
Vin seemed very much his age then, confused and lost.
Ezra could not appreciate his dilemma when his choice was so clear. Ezra had
remembered Buck Wilmington telling him how much the young man reminded him of
Chris Larabee. This was Chris Larabee
before the fire, before the hardship that changed into what he was now.
Ezra knew that Chris' close relationship with Vin had
to do with that familiarity, perhaps seeing something in Vin that had once
insisted in himself and was now gone forever. Buck had admitted to Ezra once
that part of the reason he got along so well with Vin was like Chris, the
familiar visage of an old friend lost forever had come back in the quiet manner
of the tracker.
"Ezra we can't just let him drink himself to
oblivion." Nathan whispered in Ezra's direction as they both sat at the
bar, trying not to notice that Vin had poured himself another drink and drained
it as quickly as he was draining the bottle on the table. The healer had walked
into the room hoping that he could convince Vin to stop Alex from leaving.
However, one look at the somber manner of the tracker had driven that thought
away because Vin was wearing an expression on his face that told everyone who
knew him to go away.
Ezra who was completely of aware of Vin's present
condition because he too had been keeping a close eye on the young man frowned
unhappily. "What do you suggest we do Mr. Jackson?" His hazel eyes
challenged the healer.
"I don't know," Nathan hissed back, feeling
time pressing up against them because Alex would be boarding that stage in a
matter of minutes. "But he's been sitting there ever since we got back. He
ain't even gone and seen Alex to try and work things out."
Ezra was still uncertain whether or not he ought to
intercede. Vin was hurting because
"I'll talk to him," Ezra said finally,
deciding he better do it because Nathan was just going to make things worse if
he made the attempt.
Ezra rose to his feet and took his glass of whisky
with him as he strode over to Vin's table. The tracker did not look up at him
as he approached or react when he set his glass down on the table and pulled himself
a chair. Vin merely continued to stare at the velvet box with the engagement
ring he had bought Alex days ago. The ring he had been eager to present before
"Mind if I sit down Mr. Tanner?" Ezra asked.
"If you gotta."
Vin responded, his speech somewhat slurred which was hardly surprising
considering how much he had drank already.
Ezra sat down and let a few minutes pass by, merely
staring into his drink as he tried to think of the best way to approach Vin who
clearly needed some counsel but was too proud or too stupid to ask for it.
Sometime it was so easy to forget just how young he was, being not much older
than J.D. even if life had treated him a little differently.
"You're going to try and tell me I'm being
stupid." Vin turned an accusatory glare at him. The tracker was fixing to
fight and Ezra was so determined to help him that he was tempted enough to let
it happen.
"You said it Mr. Tanner, not I." Ezra
replied, meeting his gaze directly. "I am here because you do not have a
lot of time. Mr. Jackson tells me the stage will be leaving soon and Alexandra
will be on it."
Vin said nothing but his eyes spoke volumes.
"Mr. Tanner..." Ezra tried again and then
paused before starting again with a gentler tone. "Vin, just go to her and
say you're sorry."
"I didn't ask for your opinion, Ezra." Vin
growled, with more than enough warning in his voice to the gambler to leave
things be.
Ezra who knew when he was treading on dangerous ground
refused to back down this time. "You may not wish for an opinion but you
damn well need it. When I warned you about
"I said let it go." Vin retorted. "I
know what I did. I don't need you to tell me."
"Well someone ought to." Ezra persisted.
"It should be Mr. Larabee but he is not here and
so it fall to me because I am your friend. We have ridden together for two
years now and while I may not be the most appropriate person to say this to
you, at the moment I am all you have. Now I am saying this to you because you
to need to hear it and before the liquor drowns out all your senses
completely."
Vin started to get up and Ezra grabbed his arm and
forced the tracker to remain.
"Vin, do not let her do this. You and I both know
you are letting the best thing that has ever happened to you walk out of your
life because you are too damn proud to admit that you were wrong!"
"I ain't wrong," The tracker replied shot
Ezra a menacing gaze as he regarded the arm on his person. "I ain't good
not enough for her. She'd be better off without me."
"I tend to agree," Ezra declared raising his
voice as well and determined to see this through even if it came to blows.
"Unfortunately that is not how Alexandra views the situation. For Christ
sake, Vin, all one has to do is see how she looks at you to know that she loves
you more than anything. Do not let her leave because Mrs. Richmond pushed all
the right buttons to get to you."
"Its too late Ezra," Vin said softly because
something of what the gambler had said did actually reach him. The numb feeling
inside, induced by too much liquor, was starting to wane and with its
banishment came the overwhelming emotion of loss and profound sorrow. "I
said things to her that I can't take back and I don't ever want to see her
looking at me with that much pain in her eyes again. I hurt her Ezra, I hurt
her bad and I can't even think of why I did it, except that maybe I always knew
that she was a lady and I weren't good enough to have someone like that."
Ezra felt some measure of relief knowing his words had
penetrated on some level, even if it had not succeeded in reaching the end
result of convincing Vin that Alexandra was not lost to him. "Forgive me
for saying this Vin but that is not your choice to make. It is Alexandra's. She
may be angry at what you were misguided enough to say but I do not believe that
she would lock you out of her heart for that. She is running because she cannot
even imagine her life here without, can you not see that?"
Vin could not and neither could he listen any further
to what Ezra had to say because in reaching that place inside him that was a
raw wound of pain at what he had done, he had stolen Vin's last refuge from
himself. The tracker coiled his fingers around the bottle in his hand and stood
up shakily, taking it with him as he walked out of the saloon, unable to meet
either Ezra or Nathan because he could not stand them looking at him like he
was a fool.
And he was a fool.
He stepped out in the sunshine outside the saloon and
winced as the light poured into his eyes and amplified all the reasons why
drinking during the day was a bad idea. No one paid him much notice, even with
the bottle in his hand when he paused on the boardwalk for a moment. Life went
on in
Suddenly, he heard the sound of horses and turned
instinctively towards the direction where it had come from. Vin froze as he saw
the stagecoach and the driver loading baggage to the top of the old
Alex was standing there, looking so sad as her gaze
swept across
Instead, he saw what her eyes were seeing and in that
instant shared the same memories. Memories of the first time he had seen her,
how she had graced into his life and left him astonished by how easily she had
captivated his heart with the beauty of her smile and her familiar sense of humour. Lost in those warm rememberings,
he could feel her arms around him as they rode with the sun on their backs and
how she called out his name the first time they had made love. A thousand
things moved back and forth in secret messages that only the heart could
translate and where words had no meaning.
She did not smile or frown as they stared at each
other across the wide expanse, growing vaster as the seconds ticked by. She
could only look at him, exuding sorrow with every breath she took, until she
was forced to swallow it away. Vin could see her brown eyes were glistening and
that her tears were not far behind but she held strong as she always did,
giving him one last glimpse before turning away and breaking their gazes as she
started walking towards the stagecoach.
It was only when he realized that the ring he had
bought her was no longer in his coat that some semblance of what he was letting
go, hit him with utter and devastating potency. Almost frantically, he turned
around and hurried back into saloon, unable to bear parting with the trinket
because he knew now in those last few seconds that he could not bear losing
her. Not for anything, not for his stupid pride, not for
Vin ran burst through the bat wing doors of the saloon
and saw Ezra at the table he had just vacated. The gambler was studying the
ring inside its velvet case, with a bitter sweet expression in his face that
reeked of failure at what he had been unable to convince Vin of earlier. Vin
felt another wave of shame as he realized how cruelly he had behaved not only
to Alex but to the friends who had tried to tell him he was making a mistake.
"I need it back Ezra," Vin declared as he
reached the table, glancing at the box in the gambler's hand.
"About time Mr. Tanner," Ezra sighed,
handing it back to him, clearly relieved as Vin snatched it out of his hand and
hurried out of the saloon.
However, when he reached the boardwalk again, Alex was
nowhere in sight and the stage was tumbling down the street, leaving Vin behind
and taking Alex with it in its exodus from
Considering how she was feeling at the moment, Alex
thought she had managed to hold on to her composure quite admirably when she
had found herself staring at Vin during those final moments before boarding the
stagecoach to Sweet Water. At that instant, she had realized how correct her
choice to leave
Alex had stood there, hoping and praying that he would
say something that would keep her off the carriage but nothing had been said,
no magical reprieve had come in the form of his telling her not to go. His
silence only confirmed that
He could still catch her.
All he had to do was get to his horse and he could
catch the stage. It should have never have gotten this far in the first place.
As soon as she had thrown him out of the door, he should pounded on it until
she let him in again and beg her forgiveness at his complete stupidity. He had
let all kinds of foolishness get in the way of what should have been the most
important thing to remember when
The more he thought about it, the clearer it became as
he hurried out of the saloon and strode towards the livery, the fresh air going
a long way to lifting the alcohol induced fog over his brain. She never once
made comment about the price on his head even when they had chosen to get engaged
and she never spoke about his lack of prosperity. It was not lost upon him that
whenever he was called to read or write some document, she would unobtrusively manoeuver herself into doing it for him without his ever
needing to ask. How could he had doubted someone who was so determined to make
him feel so good about himself?
How could he have let her leave?
After days of wrestling with his conscience over Alex
and Charlotte, suddenly he knew what to do and that knowledge had lifted the
terrible burden off indecision of his shoulders. Clutching the velvet box in
his hand, he knew without doubt that Buck had been right that day in the saloon
when he said that
After all, he was a subtle guy.
Vin rounded the corner and walked straight into
Charlotte, making the tracker wonder if God was not trying to put as many
obstacles in his way in retribution for his stupidity. In any case, it was a
mixed blessing that he ran into his old love because he wanted to clear the air
between them before he went and got Alex because after this day, he would be
done with Charlotte Richmond. While he would help her as a friend to get
settled in Four Corners or wherever it was she chose to live after this, that
was as far as he was willing to involve himself in her welfare.
"Vin, I'm so sorry about Alex," Charlotte
gushed as they stood before each other.
Vin looked into her eyes and for the first time, began
to question everything he saw there. "I'm sure you are Charlotte but it
ain't quite over between me and Alex yet."
He saw a flicker of something that could be considered
dismay steal across her lovely features which more or less confirmed that her
intent during their previous conversation was to create this rift between
himself and Alex. Vin felt a gush of anger froth up inside him, realizing how
correct Ezra had been when he declared Charlotte had manipulated him into this
position. Still, Vin forced himself to remember that she did this out of love
and ultimately, she would be the loser when everything was said and done.
"I thought she left. ."
"I'm going after her." He said firmly,
brushing aside her and continuing his journey towards the livery. "If I
have to, I'm going to hold up the stage just so that she listens to me so get
out of my way, I ain't got a lot of time."
"Are you sure this is what you want?"
Vin stopped abruptly in his tracks and swung around.
"Yeah
"No Charlotte," Vin sighed, unable to feel
any compassion for her in light of what had happened between himself and Alex.
"You never meant to hurt you. I never came into the picture until you
decided Will weren't good enough for you, not even when we were on the trail. I
was always something to fall back on when you and your husband weren't getting
along. I was that to you then and I'm still that to you now."
"Vin that's not true!"
"Well I couldn't stand being with you
either," he said unable to keep the emotion from his voice. "For a
long time, it ached so bad I thought I was going to die but then Alex turned up
and she made me feel better than I ever felt in my whole life without me
needing to steal another man's wife." Vin swallowed and decided he could
waste no more time with her. "I loved you and a part of me always will but
the difference between you and Alex is I can't live without her and I can
without you."
"
Both Vin and Charlotte swung to face it because the
sharpness of it had startled them in its delivery. Will
"I knew it!" Will hissed angrily. "I
knew I would find you here! With him."
"Will,"
"The hell it doesn't," the man snapped and
it was at this point that Vin became aware that he was armed.
Suddenly, the tracker had this terrible premonition
that things were about to go to hell.
"
However, there was no time to formulate any kind of a
plan because Will Richmond was too filled with anger for any words to reach the
red haze of his betrayal.
The gun fired before Vin even finished his sentence
and instinctively Vin knew that it was not he that was the target. Amidst
Vin was not conscious of much else after the exploding
sound of his shotgun dissipated. He felt his legs buckle beneath him as he
fell, aware briefly that his gun was no longer on his hand when he hit the
ground.
As for himself, Vin wondered what was worse, the fact
that he was going to die or that he was never going to tell Alex that he was
sorry.
Ezra and Nathan heard the gunshots from the saloon and
for a moment thought that Mary Travis was in danger. Although they were meant
to be protecting the widow, Mary was adamant that her daily routine not be
interfered with, mostly because she needed her work to keep her from worrying
about her son. Besides, both lawmen could see the widow through the large
window in the Clarion's office where she had been working steadily for most of
the morning and she appeared safe.
With the eruption of gunfire, both men ran out of the
Standish Tavern and noticed that Mary had emerged from her office to
investigate the commotion. Nathan and Ezra looked at each other in confusion,
trying to discern what new threat had suddenly made its appearance when they
became aware of a woman's screaming coming from the direction of the livery.
Both men immediately followed the small crowd that was going to investigate and
as they approached, heard someone calling out for a doctor.
When Ezra and Nathan arrived, the group immediately
stepped aside for the recognized law in
"Let me through!" Nathan demanded as he made
his way through the bystanders and emerged to see
"Jesus Vin!" Ezra exclaimed as the gambler
reached the prone body of Vin Tanner lying in the dirt, his chest gushing blood
so profusely that the dirt was almost covered in it. "Nathan!" Ezra
called out frantically as Ezra dropped to his knees next to Vin and tried to
stem the bleeding but had not the expertise.
"Christ!" Nathan said tearing open Vin's
shirt and seeing the extent of the damage on his ruined flesh. It was difficult
to see through all the blood but the bullet had entered frightfully close to
Vin's heart and that the blood that was coming from him could only be the
result of an arterial rupture. Vin was not quite conscious but his pulse was thready and Nathan knew that he had an hour maybe less
before he had lost so much blood there would be no surviving it. Will
"Ezra," Nathan said quickly, thinking fast
what to do because if Vin was hit where Nathan believed he was, the healer did
not have the skills to do the surgery. Only one person could keep Vin alive
longer than the hour Nathan estimated and she was presently on her way to Sweet
Water. "You got to get to that stage and bring Miss Alex back here. I
think the bullet's penetrated the heart and if it has, I ain't got the know how
to get it out. She does."
Ezra nodded in understanding, realizing that it took
quite a great deal for Nathan to admit he was less than capable of helping
anyone and Vin did not look as if he had a lot of time. "I am on my
way." The gambler rose to his feet and ran towards the livery, making the
journey that Vin had never had a chance to finish.
At least she had stopped crying.
Alex dried the last of her tears almost an hour after
her departure from
As Alex contemplated thoughts about what she would do
now, she found fresh pain coming to the fore at the realization she would have
to start a new life in a new place. She would miss Mary and Inez and all the
friends she had made in Four Corners even though the thing she would miss most
was one she was refusing to think about. It would only send her into another
fit of tears and she appeared to be out of fresh linen handkerchiefs.
She knew she liked the west and would probably find
some other town in the Territory that would be able to utilize the skills of a
qualified doctor. Most of her belongings were still in
The farther away from
The more she tried not to think about the tracker, the
more her mind ultimately returned to him and she felt the fresh stabs of pain
as memories of him plagued her. Everything from the way Vin smiled at her to
the quiet manner in which he humored her when she was in one of her more trying
moods.
Before she even knew it, Alex wondered if she was not
being a little hasty in her departure from
Although the old
By the time the stagecoach had come to a halt, there
was enough ire raised by the passengers at this sudden stop to make Alex climb
out of the carriage to escape the noise and to stretch her legs a little.
Besides, whatever the problem was, she was certain that it would be dealt with
eventually. This whole trip was painful enough without becoming additionally
agitated over the details as well. She swung open the door and was about to
step out when suddenly she saw Ezra dismounting his horse a few feet ahead.
"Ezra?" Alex exclaimed, surprised to see the
gambler.
"Alexandra," Ezra replied, lines of worry
etched across his face as he strode towards her. "I apologize for this
intrusion but you must come back to
There was enough concern in his eyes for Alex to feel
immediately alarmed because she knew he would not have ridden out here for no
good cause. "What is it? Is someone hurt?" She demanded, knowing that
was the only reason that could justify this sudden appearance.
"Alexandra, its Vin." Ezra said wasting no
time identifying the problem and discarding the need for lengthy explanations.
She needed to know what was at stake here. "Vin was on his way to the
livery when he encountered
Alex felt the air suddenly disappear around her as
Ezra's words tumbled from his lips, telling her something about Charlotte's
husband having found them at that particular moment and had assumed the worst.
Shots were fired and Vin was hurt so badly that Nathan had sent Ezra riding
after her. Alex could not breathe for a moment after hearing Nathan's
estimation that Vin had no more than an hour. Alex had no illusions to her
lover having that much time. Not if a bullet to the heart was a factor in the
equation.
"I'll get my bag." She said quietly,
brushing past Ezra as she walked towards the driver. "Have my things sent
back to
They rode hard and fast back to town with Alex saying
little during the trip back to
"Where is Nathan treating him?" Alex asked
they rode into town. As they passed by the livery, Ezra did not need to tell
Alex that had been the scene of the shooting. Although the crowd had since
dissipated, the crimsons stains of blood seeping into the dirt remained,
leaving a grisly reminder of the violence that had taken place only a short
time ago. Ezra felt Alex's grip around his shoulders tightened as she realized
that some of that blood belonged to Vin.
"I think Nathan was taking them to your clinic
because it was bigger and better facilitated." Ezra replied as his horse
continued its strong gallop through the community, cutting through the centre
of town with enough thunder in its hooves to warn pedestrians on the street to
step aside as they approached. It was only a matter of minutes before they
arrived at the clinic and Ezra practically leapt off the animal before it had
come to a stop. Alex was in no mood to waste any time herself and she
dismounted without his help, pausing long enough to retrieve her doctor's bag
which was the only thing she had unloaded from the stagecoach before running
through the front door of the clinic.
The first thing she saw when Alex burst through the
room was Charlotte Richmond weeping.
Judging by the desolate look on her face and by the
fact that Mary Travis was offering the woman comfort, Alex guessed that
"Thank God you're back." Mary said clearly
relieved at her arrival because Nathan had been unable to save
Alex nodded, saying nothing as she brushed past them
because the only thing that was on her mind at this moment was Vin and the fact
that he was still alive. She hurried forward, pulling her gloves off her
fingers as she slipped past the partition and saw Nathan standing over Vin.
Nathan looked over his shoulder at the sound of her arrival and let out a sigh
of relief even though the expression on his face was still grim.
"Miss Alex," Nathan replied as Alex stepped
forward, removing her travelling coat before draping it on a near by chair.
"I can't remove the bullet." The healer apprised her of the situation
as she came to Vin and examined the extent of his injuries. The tracker was
unconscious and it was just as well because her preliminary judgement
of his state of health indicated that surgery need to be done and very soon.
Nathan had managed to stop the bleeding with multiple clamps but not enough.
The examination table he was lying on was slick with blood and Alex guessed
immediately why Nathan had estimated that Vin had no more than an hour left to
him.
"Where is it lodged?" Alex asked, swallowing
hard because seeing Vin like this was shaking her resolve to main professional
and detached as nothing had ever managed to do. This was not just some patient.
He was the man she loved, the man without whom her life would mean nothing.
Stop it! She told herself inwardly because this sentimental diatribe was
useless to him. He needed a doctor and a surgeon to survive and if she loved
him as she knew she did, Alex would have to be that for him.
"It in the aorta." Nathan explained. "I
got him open to see what was happening but the fact is, the bullet isn't the
only problem. There's a lot of damage that isn't stopping the bleeding even
with the clamps."
What an understatement, Alex thought as she took note
of the damage and realized any chance of keeping the blood flow to a minimum
had flown out the window the moment
"That's serious but not repairable." Alex
responded, realizing that there was more to it than just that. There was
something else that Nathan was not telling her and it had to do with all this
blood that had left it mark over Vin's pale skin and her exam table. She
noticed that Vin's exposed heart cavity had clamps sticking out of it in places
as if Nathan had been attempting to re-route the flow of blood to the damaged
heart. She marveled at the skill taken to do this from just observation. Nathan
had surgical skills that put most doctors to shame and it was to his credit
that he had kept Vin alive this long.
"The bullet destroyed a large piece of artery
Alex." Nathan said softly and as he saw the colour
drain from her face, knew she understood the terrible implications of what that
meant.
"We can patch it." Alex said firmly.
"No," Nathan shook his head, hating to be
the one to deliver this kind of news. Vin was his friend too and the death of
one of the seven was something he had never wanted to see. "Too much was
lost to rebuild. We can't fix it."
"We have to think of something!" Alex
exclaimed, refusing to believe that there was no solution because the
alternative was not something she could accept. "If we don't he's going to
die!"
Nathan merely stared at her because there was no way
to stop it. Alex felt an invisible fist clench around her heart as she
understood what Nathan was trying to tell her. Alex turned to Vin, trying not
let the despair over take her as he was lying there oblivious to the sands of his
life draining before her eyes. She wanted to hold him in her arms, she wanted
to tell him so many things like she loved him and needed him and she understood
why he had said what he had because he had been afraid of becoming something
she would tire of some day. As if that could ever happen.
"I'm not letting him go!" Alex hissed.
"Not by a long shot. This can be fixed. It's just a length of
artery!" She was trying not to break down but as it always was with Vin,
emotions got in the way of her cool demeanour.
"We've gotta think of something else."
"It's a length of artery we can't replace
Alex." Nathan argued. "Lord, I don't want this to happen any more
than you do." Of course, he could not even begin to imagine what she was
feeling and understood that she could not just accept that Vin was beyond
either of their ability to save.
Alex wiped the tears from her eyes as she looked at
Vin again, feeling a thousand emotions run through her in that one second. How
could she survive without him? Take it easy, Alex told herself before she
descended completely into panic. Forcing away her fear at the inevitability of
his death in the present circumstances, Alex forced herself to think like a
surgeon not like the woman who loved Vin Tanner.
While his heart was still beating, there was a chance
and she was not prepared to give up on him. The bullet was lodged in the aorta
and Nathan had clamped all the other bleeders so oxygen was still getting to
his brain but not enough to sustain him for very long without the main artery.
The artery had to be repaired before the bullet could be removed and since it
was more or less shredded as Alex confirmed when she studied what Nathan had
done, its repair was impossible. The only way to save Vin was to magically
produce a new length of artery and that was impossible.
Or was it?
"Nathan," Alex said very calmly, her mind
attaching itself to an idea, a very bizarre and outrageous idea. "How long
has
"Not long," Nathan replied, wondering what
this had to do with anything. "Ten, fifteen minutes."
Alex nodded. "So necrosis of the tissue has yet
to take place." She mused and lapsed into silence for a few seconds as she
considered his words. Nathan knew the look well and knotted his brow as he
waited for her to deliver what it was she was deliberating with such intensity.
"What are you thinking?" He asked her
cautiously. If there was one thing he had learned about her since they had met,
it was that as a surgeon she had no peer. He was good with patients and was
able to diagnose things with amazing accuracy but Alex was the better surgeon
and Nathan who had seen battlefield cutters at work during the war, could
accurately say that she was one of the best. Much of this had to do with her
ability to make conceptual leaps and improvise when faced with impossibility.
"Ezra!" Alex called on top of her voice,
hoping the gambler was still outside.
"Miss Alex, what are you thinking?" Nathan
eyed her as Ezra emerged from the waiting area Alex had provided beyond the partition.
He stepped through just far enough so that he was inside the room with them but
not close enough to see Vin's exposed innards. Not even Ezra's strong
constitution could take the sight of that much blood.
"How is he?" Ezra could not resist asking as
he made his appearance.
Ignoring his question, Alex launched into the reason
for his summons. "Ezra I need you to go to the Emporium. Julia has a jeweller on staff there."
"Patterson," Ezra nodded, familiar with the
name. "I have indulged him in a game of cards on occasion."
"He has a magnifying glass for fine work."
Alex said quickly, knowing she had not much time if what she intended to was
going to work. "I need it here immediately. Tell him that I need it for
surgery or something but get it here fast."
Ezra could not understand why she would need the
object but recognized the urgency in her voice to not give her a debate on the
issue. Nodding shortly, the gambler left the room immediately as Alex turned
back to Nathan. "Get the respirator and keep him oxygenated." Alex
glanced at Vin praying this tactic would work.
"What do you plan to do?" Nathan demanded,
not liking at all where this was headed.
"Where's the body?" Alex said without
answering his question, unwilling to tolerate an argument at this point.
"The body?" Nathan looked at her confused.
"
"Next door," he gestured to partitioned
area. "You can be seriously suggesting what I think you are." Nathan
declared as she started out as soon as he had responded.
"It’s his only chance," Alex paused long
enough to say.
"It’s experimental and as far as I know, only
written about. No one has ever done this kind of thing before Alex. You could
kill him."
"As opposed to what Nathan?" Alex met his
gaze directly. "You know as well as I do that if we can't repair the
artery, he is dead anyway. His blood will slowly suffocate him. This is Vin's
only chance!"
"Alex, you ain't thinking straight." Nathan called
out as she continued out of the room.
"I may not be," she agreed, refusing to take
that much from him. "But I'm still going to do it."
Alex stepped out of the partition and found herself
facing Charlotte and Mary Travis. What Alex proposed required
"How is Vin?" Mary asked automatically,
having seen Ezra run out of here only a short time ago. With Billy gone, Mary
could not handle another tragedy so close to her son's abduction.
"He's dying." Alex said coldly, glaring at
Charlotte as she made that statement, indicating in no uncertain terms that she
felt the new widow was completely responsible for this.
"Oh Lord," Charlotte whimpered. Losing Will
was bad enough but now with Vin following close behind, it was more than she
could stand. Her grief was made worse with Alexandra Styles staring at her with
accusing eyes.
"Charlotte," Alex took a deep breath and
launched into the explanation she had not even given Nathan. "Vin's dying.
His main artery had been damaged. We cannot remove the bullet in his heart
until it is repaired and he will die if it isn't. Now I've got an idea to save
his life but I need your permission to perform some minor surgery on your
husband."
"But Will's dead." Charlotte muttered in
confusion, not understanding what Alex was talking about. "What kind of
surgery are you talking about?"
"I need to take a section of undamaged artery
from Will to use on Vin." Alex replied, sucking in her breath as she
announced her intention, surprised by how calmly she was describing a technique
that had only been described in books and medical journals.
"You want cut Will up?"
Alex glanced at Mary who was edging between sympathy
for
Mary looked at Alex with uncertainty, unsure whether
or not it was such a good idea to leave both women alone with the bad blood
that existed between them but could see no reason to deny the request. With
Vin's survival vital to
"Of course." Mary said as she started
towards the steps. "Alex, I hope you don't mind if I go make some
tea." The blond responded as she made a discreet exit.
Alex waited for Mary to ascend the steps into her
house before she turned her attention to Charlotte Richmond. Taking another
deep breath, she braced herself for what she intended to do and knew that time
was a commodity she did not have.
"Now you listen to me," Alex grabbed
"Let me go!"
"As far as I am concerned, you're just as
responsible for Vin as you are for your dead husband. If you want compassion,
go to a damned church because you're not getting it from me! I need that artery
and I will take it with or without your permission. Now you can
withhold it and watch me to take what I need anyway or you can attempt to help
clean up this mess you've created before another man dies because you decided
that your husband was not good enough for you!" With that Alex released
her and
"I'm a doctor Charlotte," Alex continued,
eyes blazing with fury at what this woman and her selfish desires had wrought
to the men who cared for her. "I promise to do no harm but I'm telling you
if Vin dies because you're too weak to make a decision to save his life I swear
I will kill you myself! Do you hear me?"
"Go on," she gestured to the room where
Will's body was kept, trying not to cry as she conceded defeat. "Do what
you have to but save him, please."
"I don't have a choice." Alex retorted.
"I have to." With that, she swept out of
"Are you sure about this?" Nathan asked as
Alex once Ezra had returned with the mirror she had asked for, courtesy of Mr.
Patterson of the Pemberton Emporium and the vital piece of artery that could
possibly save Vin Tanner's life.
Alex met the gaze of the healer and could not say for
certain whether what they intended to do could give Vin the chance of life that
he almost certainly did not have now. All she knew was that she had to try
because the alternative was something she could not endure. "I have to do
this Nathan," Alex said softly as she stood poised over Vin's open chest
ready to begin the surgery to replace his damaged artery. "If I don't and
I let him die, I'll spend my entire life regretting that I never took the
chance."
While he was dubious at their chances of success, he
had to agree that a slim chance of recovery was better than no chance at all.
Alex was one of the most brilliant medical minds he knew and if she believed so
earnestly that this could be done, it was impossible for him not to believe it
too. Besides, she was right. They did not have a choice and at this point
Nathan was willing to try anything to save his friend's life, even this
experimental procedure.
Alexandra Styles took a deep breath as she picked up
her first instrument and prayed to the powers that be to guide the hands her
father had once claimed to be surgeon's hands. Letting out her held breath
slowly, she calmed herself down and offered a reminder of what was at stake
here as she glimpsed at Vin whose breathing was becoming dangerously shallow
despite their best efforts to keep his vitals stable.
The procedure was not complex in theory. With the jeweller's magnifying glass to give her a enlarged view of
the delicate organs and veins within the patient's body and every lamp in the
room lit so brightly that it was almost painful to look at, Alex was ready to
begin. She would have to snip away the damaged section of artery and replace it
with Will Richmond's transplant. If successful, the replacement should work as
effectively as the one lost, allowing them to finally remove the bullet lodged
so precariously in his heart. It was the fine stitching that would ensure the
success of the operation and the jeweller's glass
would allow the magnification necessary for such delicate work.
"You ready?" She asked Nathan.
The healer nodded. "No I ain't." He admitted
honestly and Alex could not fault him for his trepidation. After all, not even
a qualified surgeon, let alone a healer attempting accreditation had ever tried
what they were attempting to do. Still, while Nathan was anxious about the
operation, Alex was not. A strange serenity had come over her. In any other place,
she could not be so certain of her actions but being a doctor was the one thing
Alex had learnt to have complete confidence about. One could not be any other
way when one was a doctor holding someone's life in one's hands.
Alex had never felt that tenet more profoundly than at
this moment when she stared lovingly into Vin's face and knew he had always had
faith in her to do well by him. That alone, gave Alex the strength to be the
doctor that he needed. At this moment of course, he had no idea that she was
about to embark on something untried and dangerous to save his life. She hoped
he could understand why she was driven to this. Alex wondered if he had any
clue that his life was disappearing and somehow God had the audacity to make
her the only one who might be able to save it. Enough ruminating, she decided
silently. Time was short and they needed to begin. Turning to the instrument
tray, she let out another breath.
"Let's do it." Alex said finally and picked
up a scalpel.
When Chris Larabee and company
rode into town later that evening, his first destination had been the saloon.
After searching every possible watering hole between here and
"Why don't you go see Mary," Buck suggested
as they made their way towards the saloon. Buck had been told how strongly Mary
had reacted to learning Ella's part in Billy's abduction and it pained him to
see Chris so tormented. He knew Chris was twisting inside with guilt and wished
there were some way to help his friend. Buck knew that if Chris would just
speak to Mary, perhaps the enmity between them would end. After all, Chris was
the closest thing Billy had to a father and Mary needed him more than ever at a
time like this.
"Stay out this Buck." Chris said sharply,
his tone so cool and grating that it harked back to the days when they had
first set up in
"All right," Buck declared, deciding that if
Chris did not want to be helped there was little he could do about it.
Experience with the gunslinger had taught him that much over the years.
Besides, it was not like he did not have problems of his own at the moment,
with Inez avoiding him like the plague and maintaining their encounter was just
another night, when clearly it had not been to either of them.
"We'd better find Billy soon," Josiah
commented as Buck let Chris walk on ahead. "He's getting worse."
"I know it." Buck sighed, giving Chris a
pained look as he watched the gunslinger lean across the counter where Inez
soon met him to take his order for a drink. "Unfortunately, Ella has got
money to hire herself some good talent. Vin tracked her for almost a week after
she got away from us and there weren't no sign of her anywhere."
"I wonder where Ezra is." J.D. commented
noticing the customary table where the gambler normally occupied to be empty.
"I don't know." Buck replied, noticing that
Vin and Nathan were absent as well.
Suddenly, Chris left the bar abruptly and turned back
towards them. His expression seemed even grimmer than ever and Buck swore
inwardly, wondering what had befallen them now? Did they never get a respite
from trouble?
"Vin's been hurt." Chris announced as he
brushed past them.
"Hurt?" Buck exclaimed. "What
happened?"
"Charlotte Richmond's husband." The
gunslinger replied as he continued towards the door and did not have to look
behind his shoulder to know that they were soon falling into step behind him.
"Oh shit!" Buck swore knowing how ugly
things became the last time Vin Tanner and Will Richmond fought over a woman.
"How bad is it?"
"Bad enough from what Inez told me." Chris
answered. "
Inez had told Chris that Vin had been taken to
Alexandra Styles' clinic and Chris hoped his best friend's injuries were not as
bad as Inez had described. No one spoke as the party made its way to Alex's
clinic as if they had not enough troubles lately. A chest wound could mean
anything but if Chris was this worried then they had reason to be as well.
Judging by the way their luck had been lately, there was every reason to assume
the worst.
After the past few days, Buck had learnt it was not
wise to be optimistic about anything any more.